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2009-05-25T00:02:00.001-07:00

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2009-05-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

Yes post post post ,
Changed blogskin and eventually i found myself a new character
a new attitude , a new mind , a new me .
i totally changed .
anybody can tell me what i changed actually ?
i find myself weird
ah lets drop this topic .
posting here is random .
so i don;t know what i should write right now ,
with my simple life going out with friends and having fun with them .
sharing laughter joys and tears .
how touching can this be .
awww ,
you cant bear to leave them after all
haha .
changed blogskin and yes this blogskin might b all pink
doesnt mean i'm girlish type ,
so yeah ,
anw this blog skin and th pictures related ,
(OHMA) loves to eatttttt , hehe , should treat her swensens someday some where
alright , ending post here
byebye ,
tata , shepesheep .

2009-05-24T07:36:00.000-07:00

Yes ,
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
i'm crying
,
And yes i'm crying , i'm pain i'm sad .
i cant resist it .
imissyou truck loads .

oh gosh when can you ever come out and meet me .
where are you leekim ! ):

2009-05-16T09:07:00.001-07:00

Weeeeeeeeee, back posting , weeeeeeeeeeeee ,
ahhhhh i'm sick for th past few weeeks , didnt recover at all !
Headaches , head spinning round and round , couldn;t recover at all ,
at time ; i really do want to vomit ;
oh gosh , but i didnt went to see th doct .

Yes i'm sick , and i'm giving attitudes , i dun have any mood to reply any message though
so please dun even think that i'm cold or whatever . i'm simply too tired , and too pissed off with my current condition . gah , bet you wouldnt even know my blog . gosh , i'm speaking crap .
i failed all my subjects , this is gross . hate this . i wanna puke . i wanna puke blood this time
when i died no one cares . when i die nobody wanna give a dam .
thats all . cheeeeeeeeee , bye all

2009-05-16T09:07:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeeeeee , hello alllll :D
Its th 100th post of my blog ! :D !
and today 17th mayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy , its my birthday as well , wee hooo
double happiness .
LO L!
weeeeeee , simple and short post <333

Ahhhhhhhh , guess you know this is for you ;D ,
you might have changed but you'll never change in my heart
cause ily . Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , this is for you <33333
Amanda , loves , weeeee :D .
take good care of yourself . you know you have not been eating meals on time or you're skipping
we'll meet as soon as possible , i promise . after i recover i'm so gonna meet you first <3>

Bye readers ,
its my birthday :D

Label ; weehoo , birthday :D !

2009-05-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

i'm back posting , i didnt have much appetite , couldnt eat more .
i'm going to b thin again .
ah
how how how ..
weeeeee ,
i'm complicated .
she once says this and that ...
ah i'm blur

arch valentino

5 days

2009-05-10T06:50:00.000-07:00

Went out tday with friend ;o !
travel ard singapore ,
cabbed my friend home and i'm home as well .
great .
no meals today ,
diet ,
twist
ending post here
bye

can you give me some reasonable replies ?
i wanted to tell you that it was you , you give me this fxcking reply .
zzzz , totally piss me off .
just 7 days . yeahh hooo ,

wooo . lalal ~

2009-05-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

i'm scared
i'm weak
i'm useless
i'm stupid
i'm nothing
i'm upset
i'm useless in everything i do
i'm pathetic
i'm suck

i'm very scared

its very pain in heart , tears trying t flow out , but i just kept it in

8 days..

2009-05-04T02:10:00.003-07:00

i'm back here , tmrw's maths !
i'm scared ppl , i'm scared . i'm not prepared . everyday burn midnight oil its not th way , i study at midnights . couldn't concentrate ,
i haven finish alot alot of things . how...
rahhh , tmrws paper 1 i gonna get 40/50 , and i'm gonna work hard for it , i swear . i promise .
weeeeee , ending post .
bye all

10days, weeeeeeeeee

2009-05-04T02:10:00.002-07:00

Hello readers i'm postinq yeahhhhh :D !
Weeeeeee , back from mugging with seihao and gerald ! :D !
Was studying in lib for 3hours but i didnt do anything there !
yet i'm there helping them do questions , weeeeeee , felt like i'm th teacher ! LOL ! <33 i'm so into maths and science , weeeeee , but physics module not in mye -'- it !
Physics is way too easyy >( but too bad its not gonna come out !
And i'm here posting right nowwww <333
just came back from mugging , had macccc , than didnt eat cater food . LOL , such a waste am i ? i should stop eating fast food and slim down yeah ! ;D <3 !
Alright ending post here readers <33333
weeeeeeeeeee , having a calm peace mood ;D

Labels ; You didnt messaged me tdy , i felt th lost of your presence , imy , G ! >(

2009-05-04T02:10:00.001-07:00

Somethinq which i didnt expect to happen , something that i just found out .
i ______ for you ? couldn't accept some facts . what you wan say just say it out str8 t my face .
couldnt even accept th fact that i'd ______ for you . which you are in dark dunno what i'm trying t tell you , you're avoiding again and again .

13 more days .

2009-05-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

Twist , hi all , back here posting , its gonna b short and sweet post , teeheee , thats right , its simple .
3 days weekend was just rotting at home ! :O
playing audi , skipping all 3 meals really slim me down i guess ? hahas (: !
yeahh today played audi a while , just a while just one game and i got bored of it .
so i didnt want t play it again as someone not accompanying me to playyyy , cause her lappy doesnt haveeee >(
Roarssssss , okay simpleeeeee , today ate breakfast lunch and dinner at th wrong timing !
Breakfast was at noon lunch was at evening and dinner at late night
and i gotta train up my body yeah , i wanna get into orienteering competitionnnn <3
sweeee i must go in , thn PAWN acs(i) than get gold , than go on stage take medals than weeeee
my name is in th history book <333333
great . i'm hyper now .
twist (: this post was updated by meeeeeee , as a request from amanda , teeheeeee ,
its your turn t updateeeee <33333 :D !

its 14 more days , weeeeeeee , :D !
Developing feelings is harder than i thought ! :O !
Accepting me is harder than anything can happen in th world . (twist)

Labels ; 14days <3333

2009-05-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

I'm back here posting , teeeheee
i'm back from running yeah .
Run 5km in 20mins , record ! teeheee
didnt have anything in th morning afternoon and dinner , now .
no food ! D: ! didnt eat at all todayyyy <3 Bet nobody can beat my record ! ZERO ! teehee thats right zero ! but after th run i felt very full . than today shall b my diet day , teeheeeeee , alrights than i'm perspiring .. hell lots . haha okay ending post here ,
Leg blisterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr >( !
bye readers <33333

Ily in a sudden .but i dun feel yours ..

2009-05-01T03:59:00.000-07:00

Hello , i'm back here posting ,
sorry for not posting so long , exams started ,
i'm trying to understand everything , but seems like th notes hates me , doesnt wants to get anything into my mind ! :O ! i hate this , rahhs ,
had my english paper on wed , omg , it was a total mess , stupidddddddddd !
paper 1 was compo , wrote with feelings ! teeheee (: , should get good marks , hmmm but for paper2 , freakingly screwww cannn , i didnt finish summary , though i finish every single quest . !
all of th questions anyhow do , so i think i would fail {?}
But i dun wan ! its th most impt sub , you got me ?
rahhs , may god bless me , hope i dun fail , amen
next was mother tongue paper th following day ,
Rahhh , compo was freaking difficult can , i anyhow write ! -.-
pathetic ass teacher who set it , but paper 2 was extreme easy for me though !
i did studyyyyyyyy heh ! :D !
so its quite easy (: !
and yes , fyi , those who were sitting behind me or beside me , you'll have notice alot of dots on my paper !
you know why , cause compre mcq question , Jiele goes " mini mani mini mo ! "
And yes thats how i got th bloody ans ! :D
woots and today is labour dayyyyyyy , teeheeee , i'm rotting at home ! cheeee , i hate this ,
someone jio me out to study please ):
maths coming soon , i gotta buck uppppppp (: !
My aim top 10 in th level , yippeeeeee , hope i get that dream of mine :D !
i might get lazy and not posting soon yeah , exam is important ! :D
gotta study , (: ,

i'm certainly piss & dulan of people , almost lost money because of his stupid actions , money can't buy me back that chance of mine , money can't buy back th win i get that day .so please , would you not interrupt me ? Grrrrs , and yes , another one of you really got me on my nerve , you piss and made me dulan MOST of th time without knowing , cause you're BHB , and thinking that you're not at wrong where you'd piss ppl off like me , i hate you t th core , though we stick together during sch ,
i wouldnt even wanted to give a damn about you , you reall suck , you're such a hong , i can't stand it man, but i still have a long way to go , i shan't expose you out , you're way tooo stupid to be bothered for people to tell you you suck and your actions really made ppl piss off ,
really why would i even wanted t stick with you .i really have no idea , but , if you change i might even b a better fren t you J , primary sch fren as usual , i love them , they rocks , they know our feelings , where as secondary , all of them thinking that they are th great , really attitude , i wanna smack them in th face , rahh , alrights , time to end my post (: !

CHeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , bye all (:

Labels : dreams of fashion , music , singing , dance ,

2009-04-26T07:28:00.001-07:00

Rahs , i simply got fxcked up in a few mins time . he said nvm , but i mind , sucker . shoo away from my path
Dog ass

2009-04-26T02:16:00.000-07:00

As usual , sch topics are always th same , haiix .
Friday was fruit day , so called pathetic day t me . assembly in th morning
Listen t craps and back t class . Got literature proj , sianx .. exam coming le still give me proj
wan me die issit -.-
Smack th teacher face than she know . make sure slap her till her eye balls drop out -.-
Rahhh next we had englishhh ,
Wheeeeeee , crystal pass me chocolatee ! Cheeee thanks Crystal (: !
But seriously what is it forrrrr , LOL ! :O ! geees , i'm not mooody , and i'm extremly happyy
There's a letter inside , went back home and read ;o !
After recess got mt test , th worst mt test i ever took ! -.- !
Pathetic asshole , i dododo , do till damn pekchek , do till dulan , do till i see jeremy answer -.-
Do till comprehension , couldnt concentrate , so i saw jeremy highlighted ans and thats how i copied ! -.- , stupid me ! Roahs , next next was maths ,
got back my test and i failed ,
bloody asshole ..
Went back home , read crystal's letter ! LOL , it was weird ,
than went arena with frens ,
roars , next ..
went back at 1130 ! ;o
reach home at 12 !

Satueday ,
Rahhh such a boring day , was at home th whole day
till night went t kfc with bball frens
next went t arcade just to relief some stress , haha (:
went back home after that ..
it was a rather simple day and life for me though
i'm getting bored and bored
Haiix ,,

I'm sorry for being an ignorant , i'm sorry .
i promise i'll do well for mye i promise and i promise
Promise should not b broken
i promise to be with you every sec every min when you need someone
i promise i wont neglect you anymore
cause you know why , cause iloveyou
sorry for what i'd done , probably i shall b th one on th wrong side ,
Amanda , i'm sorry .
i promise i'l b there for you , i promis .
promise is a small word , but it brings big meaning to life .
what i'd said here i swear i wont break it ,
sorry&ily

2009-04-20T03:52:00.001-07:00

I cared for you yet you dun give a damn , you give me an OKAY -.- .
how fucked up can this be ?
You totally change .
Fxcked up -.-

2009-04-19T07:53:00.000-07:00

Heys (: , its freaking weird for me . Bloody hell , bloody asshole , seriously i dun wan to use words this bloody ass words on youu , but why on earth wouldnt you listen t me . does that mean i'm no one or not important to you anymore ! As one , you dun wish t eat , you're on diet , you're on diet can you at least eat sth and that really satisfy what i expect from you .
i wan you to be fine i wan you t b healthy i wan you to be th best that you can ever be cause you're my fren
Asking you to eat doesnt cause th earth to fall . i wan you to be superb condition . i can tell you're weak extremely weak which i could never imagine . you wouldnt wan t listen , Than shall i ever talk to you again ..
Now that you're in there . how i wish i can go right beside you now , beside you comforting you ,
together . you fainted , i didnt wan that to happen , it eventually breaks my heart into pieces . it eventually makes me feel that you're totally not with me . Which i think you dun even treat me as your friend .Maybe i'm just a simple fren to you my words aren't strong at all .
all i have to say , i wan you to be strong , dun ever mistrust anyone .
and last of all takecare loads

i wan you t be like in th past being strong and fit

Alrights back here posting , hmmms ?
just got back home from sch . it was bloody freakinq boring home ec lessons which totally made my mood sunk .
._. ! Bet nobody can guess my feelings now ,
Yes and its NO ONE ! NOBODY ! ZERO ~ (: !
rahhs went t jp after that . hmmmms , guess what
when i was on my way back home ..
yes i saw this girl , wow , she's real chio ,
i guess if there's fate we will meet again .
intended t make friends can ! jsut that in bus ....
haiix . cause she looks very nice . and she was alone too so am i...
rawrs , didnt manage t get ..
if fate let us meet , we'll meet .
we'll meet someday somewhere .
And yes we'll meet at the same time and places like we did today . and we'll b friends
if we even meet . till than i shall end my post here .
Bye peeps (:

LABELS : Fate and dignity . Trust and relationships

2009-04-12T01:40:00.003-07:00

Hello peeps , its time for a new post i guess . (: !
alrights re-wind the time back ,
Good friday celebrated IFD , why on earth th program must be 2 hr .
sit till my pigu almost numb can , wth -.- .
Rahhhs , so thats all about it ~
After th celebration went t jp with friends ,
oh and someone went there as well !
Didnt saw her as i know her th next day !
Coincidence dence ! heheh !
No cca on that day ! hehe , luckyyyy (: !
Rahhhs next its sat !
Playyed audi till midnight !
roars !
i'm kinda addictecd to it !
but i gotta study for mye i really suck at some subs !
will someone give me free tution pleaseee ? D: !
Roars !
i totally dun understand maths
will someone teach me !
D: D: D: D: !
Roars , alright so ytd was jsut a simple day
Rot at home totally .
Today , woke up at 8
And went t pray , roars . its god dam tired and hot ! D:
after that back home , was out there for 6 hours -.- !
wth !
was with funny emotion on th car anw ><
And i had a nap cause only slept 4 hours ! rahhh ,
alright and now posting and doing my Maths (: .
till than byeeeee peeps .
Sometimes you'll find your peers irritating .
i had total stupid blur complicated feeling now !
tmrw have maths and he test
who would help me .. me myself only... haiix
jiayous bah jiele . hope i can make it .
accept meeeeeee (: !

2009-04-12T01:40:00.002-07:00

Rahhs , back here posting , promised myself not t b upset , but some certain things really made my heart turned upside down ! Starting you said you really wants to be with me together as a friend , now you're turning the tables upside down girl . -.- . You totally screw up my heart upside down . i dun wish t hate you , i wan you ! rahhs m you're nice k ! Doubt you'll find my blog ! Hahaha , i'm totally vex now !
Rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs ! today had my livee range shooting , i didnt manage to get marksman ! i felt that i screw this whole thing upside down . i didnt get the badge . and i didnt put in my effort , you know what ! i totally suck at this !
Rahhhs i'm
Depressed ! Sad ! Complicated ! Pain !
You know . today i totally suck , i totally fxcked up . rahhhs , shot a bird and flew down ,
Lols , justkidding , entertain myself for a while i guess . rahhhs , end of post . i'm totally in
super , duper , extra , hyper , uber & unprojectable feeling .
TOTALLY alot of feelings inside ! rahhhhs , i'm soso disappointed in me !
Rahhhs . i dunno what i should do now ! :B

Labels : Sad , disappointed . I suck today most .

2009-04-12T01:40:00.001-07:00

Woke up in th morning ! Rise and shine , had a heavy feeling !~ yawnnnnns ,
such a tired day it was ytd . gahhhs , body achingggg ! hahahas !
Didn't had breakfast lunch and dinner ! yippee !
andand ! PEOPLE ! i just found out that i'm fat enough to be true !
i might look slim but i'm fat ! hahah ! i'm on a slimming programme !!!! (: !
alrights . thats the own programme of mine . wanna join ? look for me every sunday !
hahah ! :B
My dinner was totally not enough . though i wanted to have something >< !!
alrights , this is just a short and sweet post , tmrw's he sewing test !
That totally suck my mood out of it . ! Feel like smacking the teacher face upside down ! hahah !
Cause its her lesson , my mood turn my world upside down cause thunderstorms coming down !
hahahah ! ahhhhhhhhh , i'm so crazy .
shalll go super uber and DUPER HIGH ! haha , though its midnight ! i can go high as well ! muahahahs , alrights , its time to study ! too energectic to sleep ! ><
lalal ~

I"M FAT ! :B
ILOVEA+A!!

2009-04-12T01:40:00.000-07:00

oh well , these few days have been just simply crazy days for me ,
Hahah , sometimes maybe i'd gone crazy , felt jealous out of a sudden ,
what could it be mannxzxc , it just tickles my heart , grrrs ?
Gahhs , shall continue with my post yeah !
Days ago , went to bunk with friends and eventually i saw my friend again .
lol such coincidence , haha . thats fate i guess ! Laallala , and started playing ,
didn't really get too much into it , got bored eventually . Rahhs , wasted trip though . haha , nothing much t elaborate leyy .. siannx . so it was a wasted trip i guess ? hah , got jio-ed out in a sudden so didnt even wear better dressing .
Gahhhhs , if not i could have met you ! Just that i'm too blur not to know where th hell is the place you're at , sorry ! ><>
i hate one person i hate him ! he's too much ! he's a flirter , but he doesnt knows what he's doing ! Rahhhs , thought he will b a nice fren though , but till now nvrm .
Knowing one takes 1min knowing one deeply takes years .

Alright ! back to my post ,
Yesterday was at homeeeee , playing games ,
during evening , got jio-ed and went to play basketball with friends !
Muahahas , playing basketball with my frens is such a great day for me !
Especially when they said jokes , i love it mannx . it will ruin my stomachhh !
Muahahahs and tears of joys ! haha ! their jokes are superb , you'll definitely laughh i guranteeeee you ! haha !! Was playing basketball matches with them ,
i got no more skills , muahahs . i suck , seriously , couldnt even get a dribbling momentum >< ... hahah , after few matches , we played bullet ! first to die
110 push ups ! Yeaho , way to go , Jokes were being splashed out to everyone ,
burst into laughters yeah ! LOL . shoot into th bicycle basket was fabulous , i almost couldn't take it ! hahah !
Anw i lost , i did 60 push ups , gahhhs >< ........
Hahah , after game went t s11 with liang to buy his dinner (: . lol,
he didnt have any strength to hold his spoon ! as he did like 100 push ups ?
hahah , actually wanted to help him de leys ! hah , bo bian he do alr ! hahah
Sorry liang ! :X
Gahhhs , went back and played dota with friends .. alrights ,
slept at 4.30am ! muahahas , cause didnt feel like sleeping went t watch tv (: .
actually lifes simply boring k (: .
its all about how you treat your life . your life your way . Everything yours if you try to achieve it . Achieving a girlfriend depends on how you treat , th things you do for her . alrights ending my post here ,
should i ? ahhaha ,

{&}
woaini !! (:

2009-04-06T03:57:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello , it has long since i blogged !
Decided to change new url ,
new emotions and feelings into my blog blog blog !
hahaha , yeahh , let all RECAp ,
LAST SAT I HAD MY SPEECH DAY , WOW .
almost screw it upside down ! mauahahahahs !
if not i would have ruined the parade by marching like one silly fool down there ?
HAHAH , my standard at that time sucks .
Hmmmms , i'm going abit crazy now . i'm really hyper.
didn't consume any chocolates or what .
i'm super duper crazy right now . hahaha ..
hmmmmmmms , today was dammm funny alrights.
i shall give you all one word . figure out yourself !
PENISLAND Don't think the wrong way ! be positive
hahaha , and my teacher eventually think the wrong way !
He laughed and we followed him ! teacher eventually think the wrong way !
hahahahah ! omg , how lecherous can this teacher be ! hahah !
alright
i think i shoudl stop here . brain suddenly stop working ! hahahaha alrights
BYE aliens !

Muahahahahs !!!

Labes : i'm sorry ; i gotta find courage to be closer to you .